yeah, here we go.

"It really changed my life. When we split up, something changed, permanently, in me. My heart sort of broke that day, and it will never be the same.” - Gwenyth Paltrow ♥

another blog. wow, i'm on a role. this won't be a good one. just pointless rambling.
i'm getting tatted up, & i am excited. i'm getting a sparrow on one hip,
& on the other i'm getting the outline of the state of arizona with a heart at gilbert.
i don't care if you think they're retarded or stupid; its what i want.

i miss arizona a lot. its been bumming me out. i need to go home.
life was just better there, & i was happy. I miss my family.

i'm jumping. cameron darling, i miss you. but i'm too scared to even talk to you anymore.
i feel like talking to you is just gonna cause more pain. & i'm pretty sure i'm right.
i know that you're over me. its reality that i'll have to face sometime soon.
so i guess i'll face it now. you'll still mean everything to me.
your still amazing in my eyes, & i don't think that will ever go away.
years from now, when you won't think about me twice; you'll still have a piece of me.
you know it too. i thought i knew what love was when i met you, even if i am still young.
but you showed me something completely different. love doesn't even cover it..
i'd give anything for us to get back together, & go back to how it was.
that will never happen though. so, now its time for me to face reality, & it's gonna be hard.