the trees are changing, and the leaves are falling.

how weird is it..that i've never seen trees change colors?
really weird. but i get to look at it every damn day.
its getting old. everything is just brown now, its ugly.

lately i've been depressed, but i hide it well.
really well. i miss arizona so much.
and i've been fully convinced i will, never, ever get married.
no guy is worth my time anymore. just my best friends.

everyone here only wants to date me because i'm the new girl.
i'm getting tired of it. on some real shit.
i don't want to date anyone, ever again. seriously.
boys are stupid, they lie, and they play their games.

they talk to you, get you to believe them,
use you, then leave you. happily ever after.
i'm sick of it.

i need a mature guy, that isn't an asshole.
but where will i ever find one of those?
um..nowhere. i forgot, they don't exist.

i miss my family.
this is too much. i miss arizona.